1st June - Everything

So this blog is supposed to be something to update daily...I'm supposed to be finding one remarkable thing about each day that I live and then write about it. Well if you're observant you may have noticed that I skipped the whole month of May and some of my April days. I think its mainly because time is an issue. Why should I spend some of the little spare time that I have writing here when I could be spending time with God, writing letters to the people I care about and other stuff which rates higher on my priorities scale. Also, there are just some days, no matter how hard I try, that I cant find anything remarkable about at all. So that makes it more depressing when the day ends and you sit looking at your computer screen thinking over your day and realising that nothing good has happened. So yes, I have given up on my daily postings of this blog and will now only write here when something truly fitting to the word remarkable happens in my life.

And it just so happens that today I have some swell things to write about!

1) For for the last few days I have been feeling quite down. This is because of a number of things which I cant mention here, but yeh everything was just getting me really depressed. And being at work didnt help because I have nine hours of thinking time and my thoughts were not positive. But anyway on saturday lunch time I was sitting on the ground with Chris, Nardine and Cairo, and then Cathie came up behind me and presented me with a beautiful plate of fried pies fanta style. Some of the crew had gone out the night before and had bought me it - they knew I liked those fried pies. Its hard to explain how I felt then. I felt like people actually cared about me, I felt appreciated. It was such an awesome feeling and I could not be more thankful for those friends God has blessed me with. It was such a small thing for them to do for me but it meant so much!

2) I watched the Lifehouse - Everything skit this week and I thought it was amazing. I dont really know what to say about it except for the fact that Gods love for us is unlike anything else in the world. If you have not seen it you should watch it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA

3) When I woke this morning I decided to read what June 1st had to say in my "Living Light" book. I recieved this book second hand from someone and on the page it had underlined a few paragraphs. They spoke directly to me. It was stuff I definitely needed to hear.

"Be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowances for each others faults because of your love. Be kind to each other, tender-hearted, forgiving one another, just as God has forgiven you because you belong to Christ. The wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure and full of quiet gentleness. Then it is peace-loving and courteous. It allows discussion and is willing to yield to others; it is full of mercy and good deeds. It is wholehearted and straight forward and sincere. Love is very patient and kind."

Sometimes I get so caught up in my own hurts and how others treat me that I forget that I need to be treating others with the respect and love they deserve. I need to be loving people like Christ loves me which is well difficult sometimes but it is important for me to remember.

I'm heading back to Cambridge soon and its my last week staying with my host family. I really pray that at least one good thing comes out of my stay there. Goodbye Auckland! See you in July.

April 19th - Janes

It was SO good to see Janee today! She is just so awesome to chill with and I missed her. She has a really awesome host family so im happy for her :) We sat in the back of the van laughing with our tongues hanging out until we cried. It was swell.

April 17th - Swell People

Today I didnt pack any lunch because there was nothing in the house and I didnt have breakfast. So when Chris gave me four items of food and when Jess hooked me up with half her pasta I was really really really grateful and happy! Its really cool when people look out for eachother.
Also, Tim makes me tea now. He puts about 50 million spoonfuls of sugar in it so its quite disgusting but I drink it because he put in the effort to make it. He does it on purpose but im totally used to bullying of this manner.

FLIP there is just a whole bunch of swell people everywhere that I dont think I appreciate as much as I should do.

April 15th - Kids

Kids are so awesome. Today when I got home from work there were heaps just chillin in the garden. At dinner they had the most funny conversations. I totally love how chilled they are, and even though some of their lives have been so crap, they can still enjoy eachothers company and friendship. I watched Madagascar 2 with them. Khyan kept sticking pins in his fingers and I was like wu...he encouraged me to try it..it was alright.
Yeh flip the kids names were so gangster. Connaire, Quinnesh, Leon, Jerome and Khyan. Being a mother will be cool.

April 14th - Jokes

This is what brightened my day:

Where do bees live?
Stingapore

Where does the choir practise?
Singapore

Where do polar bears buy shoes?
Stingapaw

Where does Locher chill?
In a locker in Seoul

(I also watched Meet Dave today without Dave...it was depressing)

April 12th - Second Chance

Last night I prayed to God that He would give me another chance to chill with my friends. I just really love and appreciate every friend God has given me and I feel stink when I dont make the most of the little chillin time I have with them. So God answered my prayers and I got to chill with Lance, Sly and Joey tonight. It was really fun with some GH, internet cafe chillin, Mcdonalds drive thru adventures and punishment spoons. I still feel really sick from PS. I was sad tonight that Han didnt come because I really wanted to chill with him too.

Thank you to my best friend of all for giving up His life for such an undeserving girl like me.

April 11th - Life

The past few days I have experienced way too much stuff that shouldnt all be happening at the same time. It is totally messing up my mind and I dont know how to get back to normal again. I guess its something that only time can fix. But thats pretty lame because it means I'll have to be like this until its better. But thats life.
I'm back in Auckland now and its scaring me. I want it so much to feel like home but for some reason it doesnt. I think I just feel completely out of place. I need someone to talk to.

I thank God for constantly being with me and loving me. He is the only reason I am able to get through life.

April 2nd - Support

It is good that in difficult times people support eachother. It makes things more bearable I guess.

April 1st - Sam

My heart is hurting for the loss of Sam. I have not cried this much in a long time. I'm hurting for his family and those really close to him. He was the most awesome person.
There is nothing remarkable about today.

March 30th - Phones and Chillz

Well work today was the gayest thing ever. I felt like dying which was not pleasant. But this evening Han called me which was cool and we chatted about things that are hot and bald and that made me feel better. I also spoke to Laban too which was neat. Ben Cameron, Ben Hawken and Sam also rang me tonight which was very amusing. Ben said the beautiful thighs thing and it was great! I've been texting Amy too and that is making me feel better as well. It is nice to have people make you feel cool when you've pretty much had the worst day.
And chillin makes days better too! I always like chillin with Janes and I had some swell chillin times with Ian tonight even if they did involve a lot of bullying and fighting.
Another encouraging thing that happened was in the middle of the day when I was like "everything is gay" Jess came up to me and hugged me and said she loved me.