April 19th - Janes

It was SO good to see Janee today! She is just so awesome to chill with and I missed her. She has a really awesome host family so im happy for her :) We sat in the back of the van laughing with our tongues hanging out until we cried. It was swell.

April 17th - Swell People

Today I didnt pack any lunch because there was nothing in the house and I didnt have breakfast. So when Chris gave me four items of food and when Jess hooked me up with half her pasta I was really really really grateful and happy! Its really cool when people look out for eachother.
Also, Tim makes me tea now. He puts about 50 million spoonfuls of sugar in it so its quite disgusting but I drink it because he put in the effort to make it. He does it on purpose but im totally used to bullying of this manner.

FLIP there is just a whole bunch of swell people everywhere that I dont think I appreciate as much as I should do.

April 15th - Kids

Kids are so awesome. Today when I got home from work there were heaps just chillin in the garden. At dinner they had the most funny conversations. I totally love how chilled they are, and even though some of their lives have been so crap, they can still enjoy eachothers company and friendship. I watched Madagascar 2 with them. Khyan kept sticking pins in his fingers and I was like wu...he encouraged me to try it..it was alright.
Yeh flip the kids names were so gangster. Connaire, Quinnesh, Leon, Jerome and Khyan. Being a mother will be cool.

April 14th - Jokes

This is what brightened my day:

Where do bees live?
Stingapore

Where does the choir practise?
Singapore

Where do polar bears buy shoes?
Stingapaw

Where does Locher chill?
In a locker in Seoul

(I also watched Meet Dave today without Dave...it was depressing)

April 12th - Second Chance

Last night I prayed to God that He would give me another chance to chill with my friends. I just really love and appreciate every friend God has given me and I feel stink when I dont make the most of the little chillin time I have with them. So God answered my prayers and I got to chill with Lance, Sly and Joey tonight. It was really fun with some GH, internet cafe chillin, Mcdonalds drive thru adventures and punishment spoons. I still feel really sick from PS. I was sad tonight that Han didnt come because I really wanted to chill with him too.

Thank you to my best friend of all for giving up His life for such an undeserving girl like me.

April 11th - Life

The past few days I have experienced way too much stuff that shouldnt all be happening at the same time. It is totally messing up my mind and I dont know how to get back to normal again. I guess its something that only time can fix. But thats pretty lame because it means I'll have to be like this until its better. But thats life.
I'm back in Auckland now and its scaring me. I want it so much to feel like home but for some reason it doesnt. I think I just feel completely out of place. I need someone to talk to.

I thank God for constantly being with me and loving me. He is the only reason I am able to get through life.

April 2nd - Support

It is good that in difficult times people support eachother. It makes things more bearable I guess.

April 1st - Sam

My heart is hurting for the loss of Sam. I have not cried this much in a long time. I'm hurting for his family and those really close to him. He was the most awesome person.
There is nothing remarkable about today.