Sunday, May 31, 2009

1st June - Everything

So this blog is supposed to be something to update daily...I'm supposed to be finding one remarkable thing about each day that I live and then write about it. Well if you're observant you may have noticed that I skipped the whole month of May and some of my April days. I think its mainly because time is an issue. Why should I spend some of the little spare time that I have writing here when I could be spending time with God, writing letters to the people I care about and other stuff which rates higher on my priorities scale. Also, there are just some days, no matter how hard I try, that I cant find anything remarkable about at all. So that makes it more depressing when the day ends and you sit looking at your computer screen thinking over your day and realising that nothing good has happened. So yes, I have given up on my daily postings of this blog and will now only write here when something truly fitting to the word remarkable happens in my life.

And it just so happens that today I have some swell things to write about!

1) For for the last few days I have been feeling quite down. This is because of a number of things which I cant mention here, but yeh everything was just getting me really depressed. And being at work didnt help because I have nine hours of thinking time and my thoughts were not positive. But anyway on saturday lunch time I was sitting on the ground with Chris, Nardine and Cairo, and then Cathie came up behind me and presented me with a beautiful plate of fried pies fanta style. Some of the crew had gone out the night before and had bought me it - they knew I liked those fried pies. Its hard to explain how I felt then. I felt like people actually cared about me, I felt appreciated. It was such an awesome feeling and I could not be more thankful for those friends God has blessed me with. It was such a small thing for them to do for me but it meant so much!

2) I watched the Lifehouse - Everything skit this week and I thought it was amazing. I dont really know what to say about it except for the fact that Gods love for us is unlike anything else in the world. If you have not seen it you should watch it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA

3) When I woke this morning I decided to read what June 1st had to say in my "Living Light" book. I recieved this book second hand from someone and on the page it had underlined a few paragraphs. They spoke directly to me. It was stuff I definitely needed to hear.

"Be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowances for each others faults because of your love. Be kind to each other, tender-hearted, forgiving one another, just as God has forgiven you because you belong to Christ. The wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure and full of quiet gentleness. Then it is peace-loving and courteous. It allows discussion and is willing to yield to others; it is full of mercy and good deeds. It is wholehearted and straight forward and sincere. Love is very patient and kind."

Sometimes I get so caught up in my own hurts and how others treat me that I forget that I need to be treating others with the respect and love they deserve. I need to be loving people like Christ loves me which is well difficult sometimes but it is important for me to remember.

I'm heading back to Cambridge soon and its my last week staying with my host family. I really pray that at least one good thing comes out of my stay there. Goodbye Auckland! See you in July.


Sunday, April 19, 2009

April 19th - Janes


It was SO good to see Janee today! She is just so awesome to chill with and I missed her. She has a really awesome host family so im happy for her :) We sat in the back of the van laughing with our tongues hanging out until we cried. It was swell.

Friday, April 17, 2009

April 17th - Swell People

Today I didnt pack any lunch because there was nothing in the house and I didnt have breakfast. So when Chris gave me four items of food and when Jess hooked me up with half her pasta I was really really really grateful and happy! Its really cool when people look out for eachother.
Also, Tim makes me tea now. He puts about 50 million spoonfuls of sugar in it so its quite disgusting but I drink it because he put in the effort to make it. He does it on purpose but im totally used to bullying of this manner.

FLIP there is just a whole bunch of swell people everywhere that I dont think I appreciate as much as I should do.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

April 15th - Kids

Kids are so awesome. Today when I got home from work there were heaps just chillin in the garden. At dinner they had the most funny conversations. I totally love how chilled they are, and even though some of their lives have been so crap, they can still enjoy eachothers company and friendship. I watched Madagascar 2 with them. Khyan kept sticking pins in his fingers and I was like wu...he encouraged me to try it..it was alright.
Yeh flip the kids names were so gangster. Connaire, Quinnesh, Leon, Jerome and Khyan. Being a mother will be cool.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

April 14th - Jokes

This is what brightened my day:

Where do bees live?
Stingapore

Where does the choir practise?
Singapore

Where do polar bears buy shoes?
Stingapaw

Where does Locher chill?
In a locker in Seoul

(I also watched Meet Dave today without Dave...it was depressing)

Sunday, April 12, 2009

April 12th - Second Chance

Last night I prayed to God that He would give me another chance to chill with my friends. I just really love and appreciate every friend God has given me and I feel stink when I dont make the most of the little chillin time I have with them. So God answered my prayers and I got to chill with Lance, Sly and Joey tonight. It was really fun with some GH, internet cafe chillin, Mcdonalds drive thru adventures and punishment spoons. I still feel really sick from PS. I was sad tonight that Han didnt come because I really wanted to chill with him too.

Thank you to my best friend of all for giving up His life for such an undeserving girl like me.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

April 11th - Life

The past few days I have experienced way too much stuff that shouldnt all be happening at the same time. It is totally messing up my mind and I dont know how to get back to normal again. I guess its something that only time can fix. But thats pretty lame because it means I'll have to be like this until its better. But thats life.
I'm back in Auckland now and its scaring me. I want it so much to feel like home but for some reason it doesnt. I think I just feel completely out of place. I need someone to talk to.

I thank God for constantly being with me and loving me. He is the only reason I am able to get through life.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

April 2nd - Support

It is good that in difficult times people support eachother. It makes things more bearable I guess.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

April 1st - Sam

My heart is hurting for the loss of Sam. I have not cried this much in a long time. I'm hurting for his family and those really close to him. He was the most awesome person.
There is nothing remarkable about today.

Monday, March 30, 2009

March 30th - Phones and Chillz

Well work today was the gayest thing ever. I felt like dying which was not pleasant. But this evening Han called me which was cool and we chatted about things that are hot and bald and that made me feel better. I also spoke to Laban too which was neat. Ben Cameron, Ben Hawken and Sam also rang me tonight which was very amusing. Ben said the beautiful thighs thing and it was great! I've been texting Amy too and that is making me feel better as well. It is nice to have people make you feel cool when you've pretty much had the worst day.
And chillin makes days better too! I always like chillin with Janes and I had some swell chillin times with Ian tonight even if they did involve a lot of bullying and fighting.
Another encouraging thing that happened was in the middle of the day when I was like "everything is gay" Jess came up to me and hugged me and said she loved me.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

March 29th - Goodbyes

I HATE SAYING GOODBYE! Its the sickest thing ever. Today I had to say goodbye to Jason and Bud forever. It just makes me feel all messed up inside. Every single person in my life means so much to me so saying goodbye pretty much kills me. I didnt like saying goodbye to everyone back in Auckland and I miss them heaps. And now during the year I will have so much more goodbyes to do and its gonna be mega stressful! But a friend made me realise that I should be greatful because I have had this oppourtunity to meet them and its been very swell.

Janes and I took our sleeping bags and some milo to the beach tonight and lay down to look at the stars. It was so beautiful. We saw some shooting stars and satellites. Then Luke Thompson came to chill with us and he sang "Only the satellites can see Miriam and Janee in sleeping bags tonight. (Fully clothed)".


March 28th - Realizationz

I really love being in Hawkes Bay. I love the people and my surroundings; everything is just so beautiful! I went to the waterfall and the beach again with Janes, Ian, Jason and Bud. It was awesome chillin times and as I was sitting in the car on the way to the beach I realised that for the first time in so long that I was content. It was such a weird feeling but definatly one I want to remember! I just loved the people I was with; I loved the day and the weather; I loved this journey that God has sent me on.
I realise that things will get tough again and I pray I can handle it. When I look back at my life this time last year there is the hugest contrast. I cant even put into words how I was feeling last year, and the years beforehand, but it was horrible. It makes how I was feeling today quite amazing. I am so glad I have God in my life.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

March 26th - Family Night

I love family nights with the whole crew! Its weird being split up and I always miss Chenay, Ben, Hayley, Tim and Cathie since they are in a different packhouse. I took some cool videos of people and some extra funny ones of Ben. It was his birthday today and I got him two pies. We watched the Lion King since that is is favourite. We had to watch it in black and white since we didnt know how to change it but I thought it looked rather beautiful that way. It was a really nice night.

When we got home my favourite dog Bud was waiting for us. I have never loved a dog so much. He is a black labrador and lives on Jasons farm so I dont get to see him much. And I like laughing with Janes.


Monday, March 23, 2009

March 23rd - 5:00

Each day when 5:00 comes around I am extremely relieved. Today was just a blaahh day and I was tired and not really wanting to be at the packhouse. I did get a cool phone call in one of my breaks from some gangster friends which lifted my spirits a bit. And thinking over the riddle Chris told Nardine and I was quite amusing.

The best feeling is sitting down listening to some Luke Thompson and Lydia Cole after hard days work.

March 22nd - Three

Three things were remarkable today.

1) I was sitting on a bench outside at church reading my bible when an old man wearing sunglasses and brown clothing put some sort of seed thing on my page. He did a chuckle and walked away. I did some sweet lolz; it was a swell gift.

2) I went on a bike ride with Ian to the store. He rode the bike and I sat on the handlebars. I have no idea how he could see where to go but we did not crash! I really enjoyed it and I like chillin with him. I wear his green hat and he wears my grey hat. And I think he stole my G-Unit hat too.

3) I lost a few things since I have been away and it was quite annoying. This evening I went to the beach and prayed that I would find them. When I got back to my room I found two of the things I had lost almost straight away. God is the man.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

March 21st - Jumping

After work today some of the Headspace crew + my host brother Ian went to this beautiful freshwater waterfall. Far out it was cool. It was SO cold and I went numb but it was worth it. The best part was jumping off the waterfall into the water. It took me a while to prepare myself and some helpful foreigners tried to encourage me by saying there were crocodiles in the water. In the end I just ran and jumped off and it was just swell. I wanna go back and jump again.
I also watched an amazing film called Children of the Silk Road. It was really sad. Made me look forward to Thailand more.

March 15th - Am I Dead?

It was a sunny day and I was parched. I thought "It'd be swell to ride a bike down to the store to purchase a cold drink!" So I did just that; I bought a cola type thing in a glass bottle. The lady didnt give me a bag and her face was psycho so I was too afraid to ask for one. This gave me a good opportunity to practise some multitasking; bike riding home whilst holding onto a bottle. I was all like yeeeeeeeh because I fully hadnt dropped it and I was afraid I would.
However...10 metres from home I hit a bump in the pathway and the bottle slipped from my fingers and shattered onto the road! Two pieces of glass bounced up and hit me in the face. When this happened I thought "Am I dead? Am I dead?" just like Barney with the pencil incident. I was not dead so dont worry. But MATE I was injured hardout and still freakin parched!! And that lid of that cola bottle...it will never be opened. I am lucky to be alive. (Photo evidence below of my traumatic experience).

Friday, March 13, 2009

March 13th - Little Things

All my days are the same; long working hours and I get worn out phyiscally, mentally and emotionally, So it is important that I begin to appreciate the little things that are cool.
One of the highlights of my day was every time I put my box of apples on the conveyor belt, Cairo would come up to me and meow. It truly was great. Sometimes he would be a sheep too which was nice.
I also really appreciate how in our breaks, Cairo makes me cups of coffee or Janee makes me mochas. And I like making them milos. We each carry different roles when it comes to making hot drinks.
The last cool little thing that happened today was when Eddie was driving Janes and me home, this awesome black man waved goodbye to us. He was beautiful and he had a sweet beanie on and I loved it how he waved even though we were strangers. He was the man.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

March 11th - First Thing

This morning I woke up wondering. I wondered if starting my day off with devotions, instead of just in the evening, would make a difference to how my day plays out. I thought I would give it a go so I got out one of my devotion books and turned to the page for March 11th. The title of the days message was "Start your day with God". I was like wowowowowow that is amazing and it totally confirmed what I had been thinking. This is obviously a routine God is wanting me to get into and I'm totally keen for that.

"So many of us start our day anxious, hurried, fearful or rushed. But we don't have to. We're going to start our day anyway; why not start it with Jesus? Do we have any better offers?"

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

March 10th - Sharing and Serving

Since Janee and I have been living together we have been getting into these neat habits.
We share heaps of stuff; our clothes, possessions, food. If one of us has a biscuit its natural to halve it and share. Today we both were eating bananas and we each broke a bit off and gave it to the other person even though it was the same thing. It didnt feel right eating something without sharing it!

We also serve eachother. We make eachother breakfast and pack their lunch when the other is running late. Janes makes me milo and I make her nutella sandwiches in the evening. It's a really nice way of living and it is something I will miss when I go home.

March 9th - Communication

I took a walk today with someone I have been wanting to talk to for ages. I'm pretty sure that the walk was arranged by God so I thank Him for that. We walked to the store to use up my change and on the way there and back my heart was breaking. It definatly was not a deep talk, but what was said was enough to make me understand things more clearly.

Communication is so important. Being away from home has really made me realize just how important face to face conversations are. Internet is a lame way of communicating. Thank goodness for phone calls!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

March 5th - Family

Today sucked but it was also good. My thoughts have been focused on depressing matters. This evening the headspace crew met up to chill and I loved being back with everyone. It took my mind off things and I just really appreciated every person there. I think it's amazing how God can bring together such different people from different backgrounds and make a family out of them.

I miss a lot of people and a lot of things.

Monday, March 2, 2009

March 2nd - Songs

I really love it how when you hear a song it can trigger all sorts of memories. Today when I was packing apples I heard a bit of Jason Mraz - I'm Yours. It reminded me of my sweet as neighbours at parachute who just chilled and sang and chilled some more. Loved those guys. They sang I'm Yours and I loved it. One guy changed the lyrics a bit and I laughed and hearing the song again made me laugh again today.

AND Jason just signed into msn just as I was typing "jason"so that is a remarkable coincidence.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

March 1st - Pebbles

There is a beach across the road from my house in Hastings and its swell. (lolz..swell..as in like waves..) It's covered in little pebble's. I licked the pebbles and it was cool to watch the saliva fade quickly. But the truly remarkable thing about this is that the first rock I licked faded until it was in the shape of Australia!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

February 24th - Creation

This is my first blog! I was meaning to start this ages ago but I was like ahhhh cos I struggled to find even the smallest remarkable thing about any of my days. But the past few weeks has changed my thoughts on that. And because I'm away this year my posts will be infrequent because I have no idea when I will have internet access.

So, today I was lost for words at how truly amazing some of the things that God has created for us are. I went on a three hour walk in the Waitakere Ranges and it was cool as. And then I went to the lake near Bethells beach and it is the most beautiful place I have ever been to. There are giant sand dunes which stretch on forever; its like a huge desert but surrounded by green hills. And after the long walk, the dunes just drop straight down into a lake which was so awesome to swim in. I was just like wuu2 God you are one swell guy! I crave going back there everyday!